I remember sitting out on the porch one snowy Colorado night back in 2008. I just needed some time to myself. God had been asking me the same question over and over that month
"How much are you willing to give me?"
I thought it a silly question...I was in Colorado training to be sent overseas to share Him with the people of Nepal. I gave up school, family, friends...I gave Him my trust, my hope, my dreams. What else could He possibly want?!?!?
My friends had gone snowboarding (yes, at night...crazy people who I love dearly!) and I could hear them laughing and joking. I longed to have that kind of freedom. But instead I was "stuck" on the porch dealing with this silly question.
"What more do you want, Lord? What else is there to give you?"
And as soon as those words left my mouth He replied:
"I want everything. I want to know that if you never held a child again....if you never saw your family again....if you never became a mother or a wife...if you ended up scrubbing toilets for the rest of your life...if you never traveled the world...would you still follow me?"
I don't know how long I sat there...but I pondered these things. I weighed my options and the only thing I could say was “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life." (John 6:68)
The next and last thing He said to me that night was
"Then take notice of the man that comes to the mountain."
I met Ed the next day...
I knew almost from the moment we met that this was the man God had in mind for me. He waited for and pursued me for 6 months (three of those months I was in Nepal and three months I was home in GA). And I guess the rest is history :)

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